here it is.. my poem.. read and enjoy.. o-yeh im new here im victoria.. people call me tori.. uh yea.. lat0r.
**SOMEDAY**
i feel like such a fiend
pupils dilated, eyes bloodshot
beyond any crimson
i dont know when to stop or cut down
because it relieves my pain
i have no fears if there are chemicals in my brain
it keeps me thinking and keeps me sane
i hate myself for feeling this way
its the only way ive ever known
to get loaded in order to live
i wish there was more to me
but i have nothing left to give
once it kicks in i feel free
like the world isnt against me
or im free of all my misery
i tried to get help get away from it all
im loosing my balance and im ready to fall
i wish i could fly far from here
but my wings are broken beyond repair
so i stay, feeling so small, loosing my soul
my insides are rotting i can feel them decay
i think ive lost my mind
maybe im just deprived or maybe im blind
for there maybe things to live for
but maybe theres not
i pretend as if im okay
i pretend thats it not on my mind
im scared that this diesease will consume me to my death
each day it eats more of my mind
no one knows how to help me
im out of control
i dont know what to think anymore
i feel like a piece of shit
lying in dirt
why does everything have to hurt
i realise its a sickness
but i wont admit
nothing ive expierienced has saved me from my facination
of sedation
i cant seem to get away, it follows me where ever i go
its all that i do and all that ive known
hopefully something else will come my way...
someday...
so how'd u like it?!?
