A Poem About My Habits Ahahaha Read Plz Im New

here it is.. my poem.. read and enjoy.. o-yeh im new here im victoria.. people call me tori.. uh yea.. lat0r.




**SOMEDAY**


i feel like such a fiend
pupils dilated, eyes bloodshot
beyond any crimson
i dont know when to stop or cut down
because it relieves my pain
i have no fears if there are chemicals in my brain
it keeps me thinking and keeps me sane
i hate myself for feeling this way
its the only way ive ever known
to get loaded in order to live
i wish there was more to me
but i have nothing left to give
once it kicks in i feel free
like the world isnt against me
or im free of all my misery
i tried to get help get away from it all
im loosing my balance and im ready to fall
i wish i could fly far from here
but my wings are broken beyond repair
so i stay, feeling so small, loosing my soul
my insides are rotting i can feel them decay
i think ive lost my mind
maybe im just deprived or maybe im blind
for there maybe things to live for
but maybe theres not
i pretend as if im okay
i pretend thats it not on my mind
im scared that this diesease will consume me to my death
each day it eats more of my mind
no one knows how to help me
im out of control
i dont know what to think anymore
i feel like a piece of shit
lying in dirt
why does everything have to hurt
i realise its a sickness
but i wont admit
nothing ive expierienced has saved me from my facination
of sedation
i cant seem to get away, it follows me where ever i go
its all that i do and all that ive known
hopefully something else will come my way...
someday...


so how'd u like it?!?

It reminds me of Trent Reznor's lyrics.

Ahh..life behind the chemical veil.......

Hi, Tori, welcome!

Very dramatic, (and depressing), poem!

Welcome Tori, have fun here...sorry I didn't read your poem, nothing personal, I never do.

hehe thats alright.. you dont have to read it.. i just thot some would.. i like to share my stuff/ thank for the welcome

yes i know its a pretty typical name.. but o well.. it was dedicated to my boyfriend.


"my angel"


i wonder what you're up to,
every single day.
i wonder how you're feeling, and if you're okay,
because i dont want you feeling pain.
i wonder how this happened,
never once was i in regret..
you're the best thing thats ever happened to me,
when i think about you my mind sets free
i can remember the day we met.
you are so special, so awesome, so real,
the way you love me makes me wet
i couldnt go on with out you,
if i had to i wouldnt know what to do..
i would keep any promises..
i wouldnt tell any lies..
all my hatred goes away when i look into your eyes..
you were such a loyal friend..
now your my lover till the end.
would you get mad if i asked for the sea?
ive loved nothing more than you and me,
you were a fallen angel, but i never recognised.
it took so long for trust,
but now i know i'll never hurt you,
because you are a part of me.
i could never hurt you..
because you're my angel that washed up on the sea
now i see you came fron high above..
would you care to share this love?



ehh any comments?

this poem is dedicated to a backstabbing ex best friend of mine (KERRI)... she just got out of rehab, yeh.. if you cant tell by this poem she ruined my life..... enjoy.

*KERRI*


as you sit and make jokes
im scheeming of slitting my throat
but you keep me breathing
your lack of maturity and intelligence
keeps me thinking of how stupid you are
your words are pointless they're a joke
why dont you go and try to be cool and sniff some coke
i should be pointing the fingers at you
you make me so sick you make me gag
your presence is overrated, it gets old so fast
your presence resides of evil and hate
like death in human form
if i had needed to seek revenge i would have done it before
but i'll let time pass and watch you die slowly
because no one likes you not even yourself
your to stuck up and spoiled to realise the truth
your past and the present was pointless
your future will be the proof
stop trying your hardest to be me
because everyone can see
that you have nothing going for you other than me
without me you'd have nothing
your making a fool of me
i dont want there to be two of me
but i have seen the light and i know whats right
i wouldnt use up my energy on you even if you named the price
for it would be a waste of money and a waste of time
your petty name calling means nothing to me
its grade school bullshit i did it when i was like 3
all ive been through, all i know about you
shallow minded, ungrateful, i can see through you..
all you have done for me was shit
if i'd never met you i'd be fine
i'd be living in a world full of sex with your boyfriend
and sipping the finest wines
your a diesease that mades it way up my spine
but i know that i let go at the nick of time
before you hit my nervous system or my brain of somekind
i wish i could rewind and erase you from my mind
why cant you see you arent as gifted as me
are you deaf or mute or blind
no matter how hard you try
or how many tears you cry
even if you had an army as big as the sea
you could never be as good as me
you are a fassad you are so fake
meeting you was a mistake
you cant be me i wont let you
stay away from my friends and eddie
cause you are not of our kind
by the way you'll never know the floyd.


.the beginning.

That last line would make anyone fall to pieces.

oyes.

haha yeah i agree, i read them all they are really good people can relate to them...nice.

nice work on all of these.