Thoughts

I couldn't sleep last night, so I decided to put my thoughts on paper. Or at least tried to.

Sometimes my thinking does no good.
I make things more complicated than I should.
The advice I was given just doesn’t seem to fit.
At this point I honestly want nothing more than to quit.
Well I know how it is to be broken,
I know how it feels to be hurt.
I know all about the promises that were left in the dirt.
I choke on lies,
I live the regrets.
I just wish I could get out of this mess.

But the more I live, the more I learn.
Everyone has their choices,
It’s just a matter of which way you turn.
Everyone has problems,
And everyone feels pain,
Everyone has troubles,
No one is out of the rain.

We all make mistakes,
And we all wonder why.
We try to hide our tears,
But secretly we cry.
It’s so hard to pretend that I’m okay with this.
But for some reason I do it anyway.
Maybe it’s my pride,
Or my foolishness.
But somehow I know,
That I can’t walk away from this.

I wanted to say I’m sorry.
I wanted you to know I was wrong.
I feel like a lie, but I’m here anyway,
All I know is tomorrow is a new day.

I feel like this will go on forever,
But I know I will find someone who will hold me together.
It’s funny how when your down,
There’s always someone to pick you up.
Life just gets harder,
but there’s laughter along the way,
It’s all a matter of which way you look at it,
And which advantages you choose to play.
It’s a crazy gamble,
But I know I’m not given more than I can handle.

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If I could make the world as pure
And strange as what I see
I’d put you in a mirror
I’d put in front of me

Linger on your pale blue eyes